Do you ever wonder who you are?
Somedays I’m just not sure. Am I the happy-go-lucky, nothing-gets-me-down, always smiling girl I feel like on the inside? Am I the girl who likes to go out with friends and have a drink every now and then? Am I the girl who loves Jesus and wants to scream it from the mountaintop? Am I the girl that feels like she’s constantly getting walked on? Am I the girl that wants the courage to put a stop to being walked on?
I feel like there’s 12 different “me’s”…and I can’t find a way to mold them all together to just be ME. Just one me. That’s what I want. But when I’m with this set of friends, I have to conform to how they are. When I’m with another set of friends, I have to be more like them.
If you were to ask me who I was….how would I describe myself?
I would say I am constantly happy even though I don’t always show it. I am shy, vulnerable, not confident. I love Jesus, I believe in God but I don’t believe in everything the Bible has to say. I like to have a few drinks but I don’t like to get drunk. I believe in fairy tales and I believe mine is coming. I believe in love and happily ever after. I believe bad things can happen to good people and I believe that amazing things can happen to bad people.
How do I find a way to be me and stay me, no matter who I’m with? Do I just have to be strong? Is it that simple? I don’t know. But I want to try.
I just really want to be ME. No holds barred. No strings. Take it or leave it. That’s my goal.